Krysta
Disciple of Prayer
I met this guy at church camp and he woke something up inside me. It was more then a "touched my heart" kind of love. It was a "spoke and touched my soul". But he left me. Just like everyone else does. I believed so deep in my heart that it was too strong to be a coincidence and just for him to be another guy. And to top it off when I was with him my connection with god was magnified. I thought of him to be my "twin flame". He made me believe in soul mates when I never even thought love existed. I even thought I heard god whisper to my heart that he was the one. For the past 5 months Ive been so sure that he will be coming back in my life later down the road. Ever since I met him no guy has caught my interest and I just don't like any guy that contacts me. It was like my heart knew that the search was over. But my pastor and youth leader, who once told me that they believed he was the one
For me and that I needed to trust the process because we both needed work, are now saying that it's the devil trying to distract me. I am now heartbroken and don't ever see myself moving on. I want to question god so bad why he did this to me but it is not my place. I just wish he was he one for me. He was like a mirror image of myself. And if I could go back to church camp to relive it all again, I would go back and stay in that moment. I was never as happy as I was in that time frame. Now I'm back to feeling empty, except now, it's worse because I don't ever believe I'll experience a love like that again because My soul burned of love for him and it was just too powerful. And even though the desire to feel love burns deep within my soul, I'll choose to be single because I know I'll compare every other guy to him and it's just not fair to them. And he was like home to me. After camp it didn't feel right being away from him. And This has never happened to me. I'm hopeless again and I just pray that you let god speak through you guys who respond. Is my pastor right? Is it the devil? Please God speak through someone on this post to either confirm he's the one or to confirm that my pastor was right.
For me and that I needed to trust the process because we both needed work, are now saying that it's the devil trying to distract me. I am now heartbroken and don't ever see myself moving on. I want to question god so bad why he did this to me but it is not my place. I just wish he was he one for me. He was like a mirror image of myself. And if I could go back to church camp to relive it all again, I would go back and stay in that moment. I was never as happy as I was in that time frame. Now I'm back to feeling empty, except now, it's worse because I don't ever believe I'll experience a love like that again because My soul burned of love for him and it was just too powerful. And even though the desire to feel love burns deep within my soul, I'll choose to be single because I know I'll compare every other guy to him and it's just not fair to them. And he was like home to me. After camp it didn't feel right being away from him. And This has never happened to me. I'm hopeless again and I just pray that you let god speak through you guys who respond. Is my pastor right? Is it the devil? Please God speak through someone on this post to either confirm he's the one or to confirm that my pastor was right.