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I met my husband more than 20 years ago, not knowing about psychopaths and I was not saved. I tried everything to please him, even separating myself from family and friends, but nothing helped, he was mistreted me badly, phisicaly emotionaly . We get one son before war in bosnia started, during the war I find out thet it was even worse in my marriage then outside. By grace , one night without food for my baby, beaten by my husband, under shiting outside, i cried to God and Jesus came in my room. Since I get saved, vary soon my husband left to Norway and I stayed in the war in 4 years, shearing the gospel, enloying the life aboundantly. and one day God told me to go to norway, and when I met my husband holy spirit show me everything, I have a lot of spiritual gifts, i needed to face the problems, but one thing I had a problem with, I thought that pastor is anointed by God to take care for his sheep and when I tried to explain in my new church about the problems, nobody believe me, nobody knows me and my husband was playing so good, we were together in the bibleshool, he could quote scriptures but in the same time he was vary violent, and using scripture to show how I have to be under him. We got another son and in 15 years I feel guilty when I think about separation, becouse 2 of my pastors, didnt confrant him for violence, and now in the church we get new pastor and the old ones moved in oter cities. I allwys feel like living in sin, destroying my tample by allowding him to bit me, and spit on me and the words were from the hell, but leaders were enouraging me to keep loving him, one day God told me to give back mantel , I was in the leadership, and I was so huppy and free becouse I never had a peace inside of me to live in abuse when I tasted freedom and love in Christ, but in allthese 15 years I didnt enjoy my childrens childhood it was always runing to the church , prayer meetings, programs, and praying every day otherwise i would be killed, and for my children it was a big shame I was hiding, I couldnt start with job, he was spiting on me publicly and I was afraid to start any place becouse he could put me in shame, and it makes me living in prison depending on his poor money for living, by grace we lacked nothing, praise Jesus, I allways prayed with my children forgivness and explaining them thet it is becouse of the war, father has aproblems even I knew he was like thet before war, but I tried to help them not to be angry but to forgive .
Please can you tell me your opinion, if I am stronger in the Spirit, does it mean thet my husband be delivered, even I dont feel I have resposibility, ONLY I ever think was to RUN FROM HIM, and to love him and pray for him from afar, but it was dangerous to have him behind then infront of my face, he could find me everywhere, I tried to run, and to involved policmens it would be even worse, i would risk my life, and i tried to talk with some from goverment,by the grace I was protected not to loose my children.
I think beforeGod it would be right to take devorce, can you give me your opinion, I was shocked that pastors and leaders i considered strong in the Lord, never adviced me to go but to pray, and other group of christians who looks not matured they are for devorce, thats why i get confused, I wan to be strong but I think if God will use me to preach I will speak openly that women do not need to suffer violence even it is the SIN, but I have never get support in my thoughts and I wish I can get your opinion.
3 years ago, I believe it was Holy Spirit, took me to the social office and in His wisdom I ask for help with comodation for my husband becouse of his problem with anger, and he get it, it was miracle, he didnt want to move out, he fretend me and finaly I had to find the furniture for him , so today he is sleeping in his apartment and eating and watching tv in my apartment becouse he is giving money for food, but he is not going to church, his behavior is terrible, this new leadersip in the church is new and they didnt see my husband and i dont plan to bring my story becouse I am not in leadership.
I am burning for sharing Jesus with others, but I am not free completly, I need a job , and confidance that I am not rebalion but pleasing God, I dont have bad concas towards God, but in church I dont feel well, even I wish I can change the church and start on a fresh, but I need God in everything, can you please pray for my job, and tell me your opinion about my story, God bless you
Jhv
Please can you tell me your opinion, if I am stronger in the Spirit, does it mean thet my husband be delivered, even I dont feel I have resposibility, ONLY I ever think was to RUN FROM HIM, and to love him and pray for him from afar, but it was dangerous to have him behind then infront of my face, he could find me everywhere, I tried to run, and to involved policmens it would be even worse, i would risk my life, and i tried to talk with some from goverment,by the grace I was protected not to loose my children.
I think beforeGod it would be right to take devorce, can you give me your opinion, I was shocked that pastors and leaders i considered strong in the Lord, never adviced me to go but to pray, and other group of christians who looks not matured they are for devorce, thats why i get confused, I wan to be strong but I think if God will use me to preach I will speak openly that women do not need to suffer violence even it is the SIN, but I have never get support in my thoughts and I wish I can get your opinion.
3 years ago, I believe it was Holy Spirit, took me to the social office and in His wisdom I ask for help with comodation for my husband becouse of his problem with anger, and he get it, it was miracle, he didnt want to move out, he fretend me and finaly I had to find the furniture for him , so today he is sleeping in his apartment and eating and watching tv in my apartment becouse he is giving money for food, but he is not going to church, his behavior is terrible, this new leadersip in the church is new and they didnt see my husband and i dont plan to bring my story becouse I am not in leadership.
I am burning for sharing Jesus with others, but I am not free completly, I need a job , and confidance that I am not rebalion but pleasing God, I dont have bad concas towards God, but in church I dont feel well, even I wish I can change the church and start on a fresh, but I need God in everything, can you please pray for my job, and tell me your opinion about my story, God bless you
Jhv
