If you think that what you are going through is bad right now , then you need to know that if you take your life or the lives of you children then you will spend an eternity in hell . there will be NO going back if you do this . Life is always changing , if you are a Christian then you can ask the Lord for His help , He ALWAYS takes care of His children . I am praying that you ask Jesus into your life for Him to be your Lord and Savior , it will be the best decision that you will ever make .