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Iampisonen
Disciple of Prayer
I'm 46M, happily married, and no kids.
Throughout my life, my relationship with God has been inconsistent.
I grew up in a Christian household with devoted Christian parents, and as an only child, I often found myself bored when I wasn’t hanging out with friends.
Unfortunately, some of the things I did during those times were not in line with my faith. These habits followed me into adulthood and looking back, I realize the devil had a way of leading me astray.
In my personal life, I’ve made mistakes, but I always learn from them and try not to repeat them.
Professionally, I’ve always been an excellent worker. During performance reviews, I consistently received top marks and annual cost-of-living raises.
This job was a dream — a six-figure salary, great benefits, an ideal location, and a four-day work week, with the flexibility to work from home 1-3 times a month. During my great moods, I felt like I was on top of the world and unstoppable.
However, yesterday, I was let go from my job of 19 years due to a poor decision I made a few months ago and it caught up to me last Thursday as I was confronted by my brand-new manager of 8 months.
After it happened, I had a strong feeling I might lose my job, and sure enough, it happened on Monday.
I was incredibly stressed all weekend, barely able to eat, knowing what was likely coming.
To be honest, since late 2019 (just before COVID), I’ve been increasingly unhappy at work.
Over the past five years, the workload grew bigger and bigger, and frequent leadership changes left me feeling burdened. The first 14 years at this workplace were amazing and couldn't think of working anywhere else.
Even though I tried to avoid office politics, the stress still followed me home, and I’d find myself thinking about work constantly, even on weekends. I was also on-call every six weeks for two weekends in a row, which added to the pressure.
Despite all that, I feel like I sold my soul for the paycheck. But now, after 19 years, today is my first day without work, and I feel overwhelmed with guilt and regret over my mistake. All day yesterday and this morning I keep beating myself up for what happened.
On a positive note, I felt a strong calling from God, and for the first time, I went back to church this past Sunday after 19 years of living in the city. While I occasionally attend church with my father a few times a year when I visit him, I haven’t been to church in my city since I moved here. It felt incredibly uplifting, and I regret not going sooner. Now, I feel like I’m starting over in my relationship with God.
I’m wondering, how can I use this situation to encourage and uplift myself as I work through this tough time, both financially and in getting my life back on track.
I am feeling very ill.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. It's very much appreciated.
Throughout my life, my relationship with God has been inconsistent.
I grew up in a Christian household with devoted Christian parents, and as an only child, I often found myself bored when I wasn’t hanging out with friends.
Unfortunately, some of the things I did during those times were not in line with my faith. These habits followed me into adulthood and looking back, I realize the devil had a way of leading me astray.
In my personal life, I’ve made mistakes, but I always learn from them and try not to repeat them.
Professionally, I’ve always been an excellent worker. During performance reviews, I consistently received top marks and annual cost-of-living raises.
This job was a dream — a six-figure salary, great benefits, an ideal location, and a four-day work week, with the flexibility to work from home 1-3 times a month. During my great moods, I felt like I was on top of the world and unstoppable.
However, yesterday, I was let go from my job of 19 years due to a poor decision I made a few months ago and it caught up to me last Thursday as I was confronted by my brand-new manager of 8 months.
After it happened, I had a strong feeling I might lose my job, and sure enough, it happened on Monday.
I was incredibly stressed all weekend, barely able to eat, knowing what was likely coming.
To be honest, since late 2019 (just before COVID), I’ve been increasingly unhappy at work.
Over the past five years, the workload grew bigger and bigger, and frequent leadership changes left me feeling burdened. The first 14 years at this workplace were amazing and couldn't think of working anywhere else.
Even though I tried to avoid office politics, the stress still followed me home, and I’d find myself thinking about work constantly, even on weekends. I was also on-call every six weeks for two weekends in a row, which added to the pressure.
Despite all that, I feel like I sold my soul for the paycheck. But now, after 19 years, today is my first day without work, and I feel overwhelmed with guilt and regret over my mistake. All day yesterday and this morning I keep beating myself up for what happened.
On a positive note, I felt a strong calling from God, and for the first time, I went back to church this past Sunday after 19 years of living in the city. While I occasionally attend church with my father a few times a year when I visit him, I haven’t been to church in my city since I moved here. It felt incredibly uplifting, and I regret not going sooner. Now, I feel like I’m starting over in my relationship with God.
I’m wondering, how can I use this situation to encourage and uplift myself as I work through this tough time, both financially and in getting my life back on track.
I am feeling very ill.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. It's very much appreciated.
