real2me
Disciple of Prayer
I lost my job in May and have been seeking another job with no success. I do not have a car and am to the point now where I cannot even afford the bus, so interviews would be almost impossible. I do not have the money for my rent and other bills and feel like I cannot breathe. I'm trying so hard to keep our home, I have 2 kids and 2 dogs,if I lose this house, the 3 of us will be separated and we will lose our family dogs. I have nowhere to go, no family that can help. I've lost my brother and sister over the past year and have had all of my friends turn their backs on me. I can usually keep my faith up and stay strong and positive but right now this constant monthly struggle to pay bills is beating me down. I'm here, home, alone every single day and it's getting harder to stay in faith that God will turn this around. I'm 48, too old to be having to start all over from rock bottom, but too young to just be living each day because I have to and not because I want to. I've been going thru really awful storms for the last year and I need so badly for this season of pain, grief, failure, and loss to be over. I need a miracle to pay bills and rent this week and I know God makes a way where there is none. I don't often ask for prayer for myself, but I need the prayers of others on my behalf right now.