I know that just because I don't see things improving, doesn't mean that God isn't working on my behalf behind the scenes ....... I truly understand that! ........ BUT, my plate is full with very serious issues, finances, legal and health being the most essential. Today, I have had a hard time staying focused on God's promises, I feel beat up ....... One step forward and 10 steps backward........I just can't seem to get there. It's a horrible feeling to be sad, unfulfilled, unaccomplished and call myself a Christian. This is not my best and I feel like a broken record praying over and over for the same things.........I know that God's ways are not our ways and I know He has a good plan for all of us......BUT, I'm down today and feeling defeated.