Hey everyone! 
Let's lift up 
Remember, Jesus cares for each one. Merry Christmas! 
broken winged
Humble Prayer Warrior
I know I ought 2 b sleeping rite now yet condemnation knocks. Thoughts racing quicker then my heart beat at times with no rest. Analyzing current events like a lifetime movie I wish 2 turn off. My son is in juvie and finally eating (so he says) and enjoying his down time as if on vacation taking NO accountability and still feeling entitled and enabled thanks to this twisted system that favors him; manipulating the masses delighting in every second of attention without a care in the world of how debilitating this whole thing is to US HIS family. The loss of weekly income is showing as the days continue due to ALL which we can NOT control. The uncertainty of our home and family's future keeps me from even tending to my loose molar just not to skip a beat. I pray so much it's as if I were talking in my sleep all that ails me. Under the microscope again just to spare those who would rather blame me then to actually DO their jobs and read all that is before them in black and white that screams the truth of our story. Stripped naked and emotionally raped every time because we are just another mere number on a docket desired closed. I am a mother at the knoose because in today's society it is seen as a rarety to love your child and put his best interest first always. Mocked demeaned belittled and at times shamed all because I am thrown into the prejudicial pool seen as ignorant and too poor to know the difference and that justice is for tv. I cry to heaven for liberty of all that I can NOT change and deliverance so that we can close this chapter permanently and finally burn this broken record to dust not to be played again. I want to save my son NOT commend him for his actions that cost us yet again. This system is set up for failure to both parties yet I keep hope that the judge will rule in my favor so that my son can finally WORK to be something; educated; disciplined; and solidly secure with a real future. I do not wish him to be failed yet again by those with position because they believe him a victim. This is not a one size fits all situation yet the judge treated it as such and with NO eye contact or statement FROM me ruled and set a date. I was compared to an earlier case and passed. It sickens me to recall this in memory so I will stop that tale. Disrespected taunted and unshielded I was ignored even the courtesy of protecting myself when faced off in the waiting room of the court by my son and his girlfriend. I forget that I am to be quiet through it all patiently even though I was threatened by the attack in COURT. I think if they would have assaulted me they may have gotten away with it easily this day. Why not just hand him a gun? The same difference... No? They were trying to start a physical altercation because they knew his time was short and needed a way to discredit me in general for immediate gratification which they received thanks to the officials who did not care to pay attention because hey... They are minors and I AM the adult and should always be the bigger person even when I'm wounded. GREAT huh? I stormed outside remembering my father and knowing that he would care about my emotional instability and I would find consolement and strength to deal. I feel inadequate helpless and beaten. I am TIRED. I have prayed for my father 2 clean my house so that we may know protection rest and liberty from the opposition defiance and vengeance of my eldest son. I continue to pray in Jesus Christ name... amen.
