Akm
Prayer Partner
I know God wouldn't let me go through this insane crappy life without a reason behind it...I know He would never set me on this path alone. So much more than I feel like I can handle. I am at my wits end, not sure what to pray for at this point, or what God wants for me or what He has in store for me. Everyday I tell myself "it can't get much worse" or "it can't get any worse" and I hold my head up and push through just for the next day to be worse. I feel like I am floating with no real purpose to being on this earth. I need His guidance, His insight, His love and understanding, His patience,...His love. It amazes me to think that God gave His one and only Son so that I may live, so that I may love...I don't understand why He would want to save me? I'm nothing, a nobody. As my days progress, I feel like a waste. The devil picks me apart, finds every fault and crack. The devil is stronger than I am,but God is stronger than the devil. Now more than ever I need Gods help with this earthly battle. I can not do it alone. I will not survive it. It's by Gods grace alone that I am here...I don't want to be a waste, I don't want the devil picking me apart. I want to be a strong soldier for God and to make him proud. What do I say? What do I pray for? How do I tell Him that I am a failure and that I'm sorry and I need His help, His divine intervention. I need help.