I won't preach to you just listen to wisdom. Suicide is the worst way to fix any problem. The truth is that there is no death. Our physical human body is the only thing that is cut off from life when we take our lives, but you will still be exactly who you are on the other side minus a physical body, and you will have a etheric spiritual body instead. All of our emotions, feelings, creativity, and personalities go with us in this body called the soul. Those that are looking to find death will be very disappointed. In the afterlife you will still be confronted with the same problem you would have left behind in this physical realm or earth life. It is our task to go through our lives and complete our souls course to accomplishment, no matter how deep the mission is. I study 1000's of cases of near death experiences and every single case of suicide that came back from the afterlife to tell their amazing heartfelt story, would never ever do it again. They see life completely different now and thank God for their lives even with their problems they thought at once were impossible. We cannot run from our problems in the afterlife. You have to experience all the pain and all the things that got you to exactly where you are now but in the spirit realm, because whether here in the physical or there in the spiritual, your soul cannot ascend to the next higher state of consciousness, unless the first initial lessons have been learned and lived. Whether you believe it or not it is essential for you finish the course of your life to completion. I pray that God will show you this and that you shall not give in to evils plan to cut your life off short of you souls victory. Gods angels are with you right now. Take hold of Gods hand and let him show you the next step. But Suicide is not the path. This is a spirit that must depart from your conscious. I Pray that God will take these thoughts from you and send them back to hell where they came from. I pray that peace will be in your mind, body soul and spirit to live in the name of Jesus. He loves you with unconditional love and so Do I. God bless you and private chat me if you need to talk it out. Amen.