Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
I iwsh God coudl help me.i dotn want to eb here anymore. if anyoen know knwo sthe Lor dcna you please pray fo rme an and my fmaily. iv ebeen praiyng fro years. this is so hard. im gettign angry havent left the hous ein years my mother hwo has sperger socntrols my lfie and i care for my bedridden grandma 24/7 in a forighn coutnry and i have so myn helaht issues. yestrda yi ws ver yangry. i asked God for a husband i asked God for help. i dotn want t live anymore. Im so tire dfo always hivng to adhere to my mtohewr schedule and her lakc of understandign. im so tire dof the helath issues and my grandm ais in constat sufferign hasnt opened her eyes in years and severe diarrea all day everyday its poop clenaing day i wis hican go for a walk havent hsowere idn year sim really tired of im a tired and loenly and frustrated caregiver. i dotn tak ecare of myself . im so depressed. i hav had firen din years i pray all the itme btu nothgin helps. i wish i was never bron its too hard. im solonely . i odnt knwo what to do. no one ver cares. pelase pray that God cares becuas ei m losign it.im losign it and i dotn kwno i dotn want to lose it. ibut im tire do fbeign strogn im tird of all the illness and loenlienss and sufferign. ther eis enver a godo day .. onyl when i have to clena less poop. im tired an dlonely. i aksed God to hela my grandma... i dotn wanan be acregiver 24/7. ive been doignthis for years.. pelase God why cant i at lease have soem freedom in my lfie. im lonley. im so lonely no oen should have ot eb this aloen.. please pray for me i have belif anymore no fight in me. nobody ever cares abotu em and it make sme upset an dim too tired ot make firend anamore. o no oen cares and it hsurts. why do i hav to alwys be so aloen. i odnt knwo how ot go on.. its tortuere and i havent had a hug in years. i wish i ocudl die.