Garrett90
Humble Servant
I havnt been on here in quite some time. I guess you can say i gave up on praying. Ive tried to stay positive and keep hope, but months of going unanswered took its toll. Ive prayed with my heart, and nothing. People say its all Gods timing, and he already has everything planned out. If he has everything plannef out, then whats the point in praying. And doesnt that take away free will if everything is already planned. Ive been fighting depression, and because of it and me hiding it, ive lost someone i loved and cared about. Ive also lost people i thought were family and friends. But they were just using me. Im tired of being nice and helping people, putting people before myself just to be stepped on and walked over and used. Im tired of thinking about the same person over and over and over again because i miss them and wish they were in my life again. Im tired of battling depression and this never ending feeling that im not good enough and the want to just end it all. I cant wait for Gods timing. I need a miracle, this day, this hour, this minute, but i still get no help. Why am i going through this, ive had enough