PrettyBella
Disciple of Prayer
I have really been going through a lot in my life. Today has been by far one of the worst days of my life. I wanted to kill myself today. I have been wanting to kill myself since I was 16 years old. I have really been angry, depressed, emotional a lot over the years and I thought it would get better as I got older, but it only got worse. Sometimes I feel like I nobody to turn to. I stay by myself the majority of my days and I feel very depressed. I feel like I have nobody to turn to, even God. I'm severely suffering from ADD and bipolar disorder. It has really taken a toll on my life. It has ruining freindships, relationships and jobs over the years. I really need prayer everybody. After what I have been through today, I know God is very upset with me for trying to take my own life. Im thanking him for coming into my soul and heart for telling me not to. I turned on netflix and watched a movie call "Tales from the Hood", I fast forwarded to the very end of the movie, and it showed the guy who ran the funeral home turn into satan. This movie scared me for years!!!! But today, after God told me not to take my own life, I will end up in hell. AND THATS NOT WHERE I WANT MY SOUL TO GO!!! My soul was created by God and it forever remain with God. I'm really having a very bad financial hardship right now. I afraid that I'm going to lose my car if I dont keep up with my payments, and Im afarid that I will lose everything if I dont take better care of my money. I'm not praying to be rich, I praying to be financially stable so I can be able to live comfortable. Thank you for taking the time out to pray for me in my difficult time and may God bless you all!