I have not been loyal in prayer. I have been so hurt and lied to in my life I am lost and confused and cannot make decisions confidently. I am weak. Some of you may know my situation due to my past frequent posts. I found out I was pregnant last March, two days later I found out there was abuse in my home so I went to police and endured a pregnancy dealing with child services, police, court and many therapies and appointments for myself and my 3 children. I had to quit my job that I loved die to all the issues.I gave birth to a healthy boy 10/11/22 thankfully. I have carried so much pain and anger at times and gone through so many difficulties alone. Now I am a single mom with 4 kids and I feel like a failure. I wanted my kids to have their father and have a happy family. I am so broken, I don’t know what to do anymore. I need gods hand and clear guidance from him because I have so much confusion inside that I don’t know what decisions to make in my life, whether to just be silent and do nothing or act on my ideas and feelings. I don’t know what comes from god or what is not of god. I need god close and protecting me right now. I need to be ok for my kids. I need to finish my school. I have no income still. Child services is assisting me with getting financial help so I hope that goes through and most importantly finishing my school to have a great career.