Exparda
Disciple of Prayer
I have had money problems for over 10 years. I took many loans. Fortunately my one big loan ends next summer. But trying to pay all loans is extremely hard. I don't know if I can live with so little money for more than half a year. After my husband died 10 years ago I am alone with my son (### years old), My son helps me with money if I ask but I don't want to ask him much. This is so difficult because I feel stressed...and still cannot go on holiday or find a hobby, my work is often stressful too. What to do, I don't know. These 10 years only once I tried my luck with men and found no luck. Now I don't even try to find a man. I haven't been able to find a hobby for all these 10 years and often haven't been happy. What to do. Our apartment is not renovated, walls are broken and so on. Please pray that I can pay my loans fast and that love will find me. Please pray that I can live in a nice new apartment and be happy. I have dreamed about living in a warm country because I just need sun and love palm trees and mountains. Please pray that I live in some warm place one day if God thinks this is good for me. I have been an extremely cheerful woman when I was younger...and my cheerful nature is vanished. Although lately I have managed to enjoy at least some events organized by the company where I work...last year I didn't attend these events too, I was too stressed out to do that. All wonderful things to you who want to help me.