Ean
Disciple of Prayer
I have been through a lot in the last three years. To make my long story short my ex was with multiple men while with me and when we seperated. I loved her enough to let her go. My problem has been that i need a consistent job to support our young boys. They have been hurt by one of the men she saw and law enforcement did nothing since it happened on a a reservation. I have been roller coastering. All I valued and believe has been put to question. I really had to look at myself and ask am I the architect of my own failures? I played pro football and was injured out. I work day labor and nothing has been consistent. I apply all over and have been denied. I lived in a car and was ran off the road and almost died. Now after being separated and working to be a father my sons need. A teacher someone who shows love and discipline to have our sos and be close with God. It has been hard because i feel everything I held close is gone or distorted. My new relationship with Ciara its been a few months has been strained as well I don't ont know why she told me she didn't feel attracted to me anymore. I asked if it was due to my ex as she said no then partly it is. So i know alot of the people here in town hate me. They say its my fault I am the liar, the controller, the man whore, and so on. I pray for everyone because its to see all this suffering. I loved my ex Dominique but I can't control so I it be. I wanted marriage a family to provide protect and build with God. I do love my new lady she is distant with God right now. I want us to have a relationship with him to strengthennour own. I dont know God's plan. I will listen and be humble. I have been reading the word and attending chruch. I need fixing I admit that. I work to get football team and help those all I love and care for even my enemies. I know I'm not perfect so I will ask of all my brothers and sisters please pray. To help me best you can I struggle to live and provide everyday but I know God is with me. I understand someone is worse off than me so I pray them as well. Thank you!