Fayman
Disciple of Prayer
I have been struggling with depression for years now. Being in relationships where I m repeatedly blamed and belittled, especially when it wasn't my fault has wrecked my spirit. I was once cherished and adored. I'm actually a nice person. But, why do these men in my life keep talking about past sins when I've let them go? Why do they make me feel this inadequate and as if I m such a failure, unworthy of any form of goodness?Doesn't forgiveness include forgetting it and letting things go? When God has forgiven me, why does the past haunt my present? If he claims he loves me, why does he keep record of wrongs? Why does he drink so much, citing me as the reason? Am I altogether evil and possessed? God is my witness. I haven't gone back to my sin. I'm faithful and I m really trying here.