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I have a problem and I need advice although I may already know what the answer is. I’ve known this man for 20 years next year as he was my best friend. The last four years we decided to start a relationship. He is an older man 14 years older than me and within the last four years I’ve moved in and out of his home at least four times I have never broken up as he’s broken up and he does have an anger problem and a trust problem, as his 1st wife he married at 17 and he joined military at that age and overseas for 20 years and 2nd wife was and is a meth addict, he never like talking about anything never likes talking about problems and rather break up and be apart and get back together. this last time was different as I was living in the home already and he proposed to me June 21 I thought things had gotten so much better so I thought we got passed everything that we’ve gone through and About a week and a half later we went on her yearly camping trip and again every year something is always going wrong but it started out beautiful my son threw a ball in the tree accidentally as he was playing a game and that set him off got into huge argument he told me to leave as all I said was you didn’t want me there and his cussing started and ordered us to leave so my son and I left and he got angry because we left. he came home didn’t talk to me for 12 weeks and as I lived there in home he slept downstairs and I upstairs so I moved out on the 12th week and a week before I moved out he wanted to get back together again.as usual it’s usually the last week before I move out he has a change of heart. I’ve been out of the home for a month and a half almost 2 months and he’s been every weekend at my house. But leaves early morning and he’s found a reason to get upset with me and since our last break up things of been so much different in the 12 weeks that he didn’t talk to me and I found out that he had registered on a singles website looking for casual relationships which is an something not like him and found receipts for lunches n drinks. throughout our relationship it kept getting worse because of course he never like to talk about anything but it would anger me that he’d get phone calls or text and with texts, they were always hidden from me look at them away from me and his phones always on silent when hes w me I’ve noticed things here and there and it’s got me angry because we can never talk about things. Did I thinkhe was having an affair? no I didn’t not think a sexual affair anyways but did I think he was speaking to other women that yeah I did and to me that’s good enough but I always give him the benefit of the doubt I always wanted to believe him even though he never apologize never never brought it up so I had to change myself for him, pick my fight. if I didn’t argue I would just be quiet let him blow off steam he said I was giving him attitude because I wouldn’t talk and if I would talk he would get mad. after this last break that he would cuss a lot at me and it was getting worse and worse so now once again he broke up with me again because I asked him where he was that and that Escaladed and he tells me that I’m Full of it I tell him the only reason I question is because he doesn’t talk to me, hides things and. I’ve tried to talk about what I see and the things I find receipts and find everything and I still give him the benefit of the doubt I did everything for this man the last four years everything so he wouldn’t want for anything I took care of him and his kids and they are older kids. I took care of his home so he wouldn’t have to worry about cleaning cooking nothing even when I cooked for his kids specifically for what they wanted to eat as they were picky they will eventually tell me no they’re not hungry and Of course that’s where he’d get up to make them something and they’re older kids and do not know how to fend for themselves because he does everything for them even now when we supposedly got back together again after the last break up he tells me that I’m the only thing he wants in his future but then he pulls this then he tells me he never wants to see me again he’s through with me and that he’s gonna shut my phone off because he’s paying for it it’s on his line but he never does as that’s the only way he can see who I am talking to as he looks at phone records of which I don’t care I have nothing to hise as he has passwords on phone and computers.so he just blocked me on his phone and then unblocked me few days later. I’m very tired of this and I’m hurt because I am a good woman I know I can make somebody a very good woman, a good wife and I can’t understand why somebody who is 14 years older than me would want to give up somebody like me so easily you know he is a senior already but I never look at age because he was my best friend for so long we were supposed to get married next April on the anniversary of the day we met it was very special and now everything is gone I told him what solid evidence if he ever given me in our relationship to tell me that have nothing to worry about as even when he proposed he took that away a week n half later. If anything you should be showing me things for me to not worry. He never told me about the website as I found out and the receipts that I found everything. That is not somebody who’s only there for me and he claims that I just keep accusing him and he’s tired of and that I have to move on but yet he comes back. why can’t I move on and why do I keep letting him come back I’m scared and I don’t know what to do I’m afraid I won’t be able to ever let go and I’m afraid you even though he keeps breaking up that he will not let me go either. what do I do? How can I get strong and stay away? He says it’s all me thinking this way…I need a miracle to save us or to give me strength to walk away...please help I cannot stop crying
