Ophpur
Prayer Partner
I have a big prayer request. I recently left a toxic relationship of 7 years -- anyway the result being I am living in a semi-abandoned house that my mom owns; but no one has money to fix it...I have no hot water...no shower or tub (I have to bathe like a homeless person in the backyard); only has one toilet; the place has rats and bugs and merciless flies. I have been back here two months and every day it's like why am I alive! I can't keep on this way. I am ### and retired early and it's not enough to live on...plus I'm about ### in debt from my second marriage. Anyway I HAVE to leave ###, I am SICK OF IT HERE...I can't afford to live here -- I've looked at many states (### of which I am looking at and applying for jobs). So I am in desperate prayer -- in that I was born and raised in ###, ### and I have "always" just hated it as I am CONSERVATIVE and NO ONE gives a dang about anything here - it's a vagabond state. Anyway, I've been praying too long and nothing -- so to me I am becoming so jaded that it's like I think, "God doesn't exist" why am I wasting my time praying -- yet the big bang theory is absolute crap. So I'm at a loss -- I need to get OUT OF HERE and into a small town, conservative state and being able to survive -- I will not last like this. Please someone pray for me that God makes a way where there seems no way!...###