Ophpur
Prayer Partner
I have a big prayer request. I recently left a toxic relationship of 7 years -- anyway the result being I am living in a semi-abandoned house that my mom owns; but no one has money to fix it...i have no hot water...no shower or tub (i have to bath like a homeless person in the backyard); only has one toilet; the place has rats and bugs and merciless flies. I have been back here two months and every day it's like why am i alive! I can't keep on this way. I am 62 and retired early and it's not enough to live on...plus i'm about 25k in debt from my second marriage. Anyway i HAVE to leave San Diego, I am SICK OF IT HERE...i can't afford to live here -- i've looked at many states (3 of which I am looking at and applying for jobs). So I am in desparate prayer -- in that I was born and raised in San Diego, CA and I have "always" just hated it as I am CONSERVATIVE and NO ONE gives a dang about anything here - it's a vagabond state. Anyway, I been prayer too long and nothing -- so to me I am becoming so jaded that it's like I think, "God doesn't exist" why am i wasting my time praying -- yet the big bang theory is absolute crap. So i'm at a loss -- i need to get OUT OF HERE and into a small town, conservative state and being able to survive -- i will not last like this. Please someone pray for me that God makes a way where there seems no way!...Jim