I had to steal as a child to have something to play

[Bennie Deysel]

I had to steal as a child to have something to play with. I had to grow up with a drunk father who beated my mother! Grew up in fear that made me to scared to stand up for myself in my school years I was hurt over and over and OVER I dont have metric now over that. My 1st phone I bought on the age of 18 life pushed me to Satanism in my mind to hate and hate and destroy one night you wake up with your face to the seeling get thrown into your bed and darkness surrounds you wile they screen on you I HATE YOU it started wen I was 5 years old lasted til I was 21. And the beginning of this year I got a job by an insurance company I bought lots if items from my job and re sell and I made some moneys and I was happy I felt that I desire to be happy and successful after everything that has been done to me. Now I have lost my job for no reason and now I am a dog that must go work in a liquor store for 12 hours a day for almost nothing. This is why I am actually here this is why I try to reserve prayers I believed that here is true Christians I never even touched or kissed a girl open mouth be for. Know why I got into Satanism its because I was tired I could not fight anymore and I one herd a voice as clear as daylight... if you cannot beat them join them. Thats what I did. Being born dead lets me think that I have no purpose. I was a mistake I was a dog grew up a dog and suddenly success came along and I felt so amazing so alive so happy that I can finally feel how it is live. And it is gone and this is the honest truth why I came here and why I say the things that I say. I need help I believe im lost even if im baptised nothing has changed... just my father. But the angels of jesus me to me 2 weeks after I was baptised they asked Jesus to help me this is the most honest subject I could have ever told you... dont take your life for granted because there is poeple like me who has no life even if they are living

 

[patty700]

Ask Jesus into your heart and ask forgiveness for all your sins,be grateful for every thing ,for anyjob for the word of God to renew your mind.Let go of what is behind you and live everyday for God and to help others

 

[Shermarie1]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!!
Ephesians 3:20 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us

 

[Bennie Deysel]

Shermarie is just a computer bot that say the same thing OVER and OVER just to get a LOVE or a like. Its like the world out there you think that Someone's actually caring about you. Wile THEY are only doing things for there own selfishness... same like this websites boss. If you want to delete a message you have to pay for it as it is to much trouble to remove a simple message. 

 

[HaveMercy]

Bennie, 

This life is hard. We all have hardship, but it’s what we choose to do with it. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like we have much choice. I agree with Patty. Praise got for the little things. Having a job and choosing to show himself to you so that you’ll have eternal life living with joy and peace. God wants to heal you. Every day we have to press through and choose him even if we are numb. Being kind when we are empty. Your life has worth and purpose. You’ve got to renew your mind and believe that you where created for purpose bc your were and are. Whether you see it or not. That’s the truth. Lord I pray You’d send your Spirit to cast Bennies past away. Lord teach him. Soften parts of his heart that are hard. Heal the pain. Give him hope and help him choose hope. Lord guide him to a loving church body or to A safe group like Celebrate Recovery. Turn his life around Lord. In Jesus we pray. Amen. 

I may post a similar message on multiple post, but it doesn’t mean I’m not praying. If I post I stand in agreement on 5 posts it means I prayed over that post. 

 

[The Encourager]

May God answer your prayer request according to His perfect love, will, wisdom, timing, grace, and mercy.  Thank You Jesus. Amen!

Let’s Pray: God in Jesus' name please answer my prayers according to Your perfect love, will, wisdom,  timing, grace, and mercy.   God You know what is best and Your timing is always perfect.   God teach me how to trust You, and wait in faith on You to answer my prayers. God I will continue to praise and Thank You all the days of my life. I appreciate You Lord Jesus. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus. Thank You that all things (good or bad) will work together for the good of those who love You, those who are the called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28).

Please Read Trials and Obstacles: https://www.prayerrequest.com/blogs/entry/822-trials-and-obstacles/

 

[Bennie Deysel]

Thank you but forgive me but I need to.remove my personal information of this website I dont want to be here anymore with this computer bots

 

[jcjcpurple]

I prayed for this. In the name of Jesus. Amen

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.

 

[123]

Psalm 59: You are my strength, I sing praise to you; you, God, are my fortress, my God on whom I can rely. May the Lord wrap his arms around you and keep you at peace. Believe and keep praying. My thoughts and prayers are with you!