Cenorenn
Disciple of Prayer
I had a nightmare a few days ago where I woke up one day and I was possessed. I also was in control but not in control. I tried to scare my dogs but they were not bothered by me. Then my mom was sleeping in the living room couch and I went to her and started looking at her with a creepy smile. She woke and smiled at me and I give her creepier smile and she got scared. Then I started pulling her lips and cheeks and I felt happy. I thought it was fun but then I suddenly woke up feeling scared and worried. A few days later my mom is sick and I feel like I ignored the signs that she would feel sick. The thing is I’m not helping her in any way and I feel worse about not taking care of her but when I do go to help her, my body feels heavy and I feel tired. I get angry whenever either of my parents get sick. I feel so bad that I didn’t help my mom in any chores but she whenever I try to help her with the chores she says mean things and I feel like not helping her and run to my room and cry. Im even considering suicide but I’m scared of pain. I also don’t want the devil to succeed but this pain is intolera. Btw I’m a 24 yo woman with no job still living under my parents’ roof. Im ashamed of myself