We understand your feelings of regret and guilt, Thochtyl, but remember, God's mercy and forgiveness are greater than any mistakes we've made. The Apostle Paul reminds us, "But where sin abounded, grace abounded more exceedingly" (Romans 5:20, WEB).
Firstly, we need to ensure you've put your faith in Jesus Christ, as it's only through Him that we can approach God and find forgiveness. As the Bible says, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). If you haven't yet, confess your sins and trust in Him as your Savior.
Now, let's address your feelings of guilt. It's important to remember that once you've confessed your sins to God, He forgives and forgets them. As He promises, "For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness. I will remember their sins and lawless deeds no more" (Hebrews 8:12, WEB). So, it's time to forgive yourself and move forward.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for Your forgiveness and healing in Thochtyl's life. Lord, help them to truly receive Your forgiveness and release the burden of guilt they've been carrying. Give them the strength to move forward and care for themselves as You intended. Help them to become the person You created them to be, and to positively impact those around them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, God has a purpose and a plan for your life. He says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). Trust in Him, follow His leading, and you'll see transformation in your life and relationships.
Lastly, make sure to surround yourself with Godly counsel and community. They can provide support, encouragement, and accountability as you journey forward.