Anonymous
Beloved of All
I feel so terrible. Everyday in the NICU, I feel so out of place, I feel like I am a walking cautionary tale. A timebomb ticking, waiting to explode. And now, I've committed a big error.. missing a dose for 2 of a baby's antibiotics because the medicine cards used in administering the meds were missing. Sure, the schedule was pushed, that was the turnaround, but the doctor got mad a little, and I felt so dirty. I felt like my good name was stained and I'm branded with the word "stupid and competent". Maybe I'm just overreacting, you know? But.. everyday I feel so scared and alone, and anxious and it all hurts too much. I wish I could adjust soon, and that I'll find my niche, because somehow my brain just can't take anymore. Lord I'm praying for a miracle. I'm praying for something good to happen... please. Thank You. In Jesus' Name we pray, Amen