Revin
Prayer Warrior
I feel so scared of dying now. The last year I have been in hospital a few times with problems that could have been life threatening.
I'm so scared that my ulcer could start bleeding again and burst and I could bleed out and die.
My ulcer when it started bleeding last time I was immediately admitted to the hospital with great concern and they cauterized it.
I stomach is feeling sore at the moment and I don't know why, maybe it was the chilly chicken livers I ate last night but that didn't affect me before I think. I'm also scared my excessive wine intake could kill me. I'm trying to cut back and stop drinking but its the anxiety that is driving me to wine.
I also wake up at 1-3 am every morning and can't sleep it as if I'm reminded of all the sins I might have done the day before and feel so guilty and fearful. I don't know if it is the accusations of the devil that is making me feel guilty and condemned and full of anxiety or if it is maybe the conviction of the Lord but my mind is bombarded with all these anxious thoughts. I think I need to go back on my medication for anxiety possibly. Maybe it is the Lord allowing this
as he knows if I carry on like this I might die soon. However if I could just have one anxious free day I could give the wine a miss.
I repent but the anxiety lingers the whole early morning. Sometimes I feel that maybe God is mad it me
I want him to welcome me home when I die and to be filled with his incredible love.
The bible says the Holy spirit is the comforter but I feel like I'm being scared and I just want to be comforted by the Lord and held in his arms.
I want to feel loved again and at peace. Really please pray this for me, I don't want to live my life like this in fear , its killing me.
Also please pray that I can sleep through out the night in peace as well.
I'm so scared that my ulcer could start bleeding again and burst and I could bleed out and die.
My ulcer when it started bleeding last time I was immediately admitted to the hospital with great concern and they cauterized it.
I stomach is feeling sore at the moment and I don't know why, maybe it was the chilly chicken livers I ate last night but that didn't affect me before I think. I'm also scared my excessive wine intake could kill me. I'm trying to cut back and stop drinking but its the anxiety that is driving me to wine.
I also wake up at 1-3 am every morning and can't sleep it as if I'm reminded of all the sins I might have done the day before and feel so guilty and fearful. I don't know if it is the accusations of the devil that is making me feel guilty and condemned and full of anxiety or if it is maybe the conviction of the Lord but my mind is bombarded with all these anxious thoughts. I think I need to go back on my medication for anxiety possibly. Maybe it is the Lord allowing this
as he knows if I carry on like this I might die soon. However if I could just have one anxious free day I could give the wine a miss.
I repent but the anxiety lingers the whole early morning. Sometimes I feel that maybe God is mad it me
I want him to welcome me home when I die and to be filled with his incredible love.
The bible says the Holy spirit is the comforter but I feel like I'm being scared and I just want to be comforted by the Lord and held in his arms.
I want to feel loved again and at peace. Really please pray this for me, I don't want to live my life like this in fear , its killing me.
Also please pray that I can sleep through out the night in peace as well.
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