Anonymous
Beloved of All
I feel really alone right now. I am preparing for an event that is possibly going to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I believe that God is directing me to do this and I want to be obedient. I really have no one to really just sit and talk about this with. And I’m not even sure how that will help anyway…it’s not going to stop me from having to do this. I’ve been diagnosed in the past with bipolar disorder and the stress of this event and work and some other things has caused me to be unable to sleep and I feel myself bordering on a manic state. I’ve missed work the past couple days and I don’t feel I can be honest about this to anyone because I am afraid that they will try to admit me into the hospital which will make everything in my life even worse. I am not a danger to myself or anyone else…I am just so stressed and scared and just uncertain why God is calling me to do this. I am fully committed to doing what He has asked but the next week is extremely overwhelming me. Please God help, please God fix this.