May God's peace be upon you. He loves you. You are not alone in this....not for one second!!!!!! I pray that you seek out others close to you as well....let them know what your dealing with. Suicide is NEVER an option. You are loved, you are beautiful and GOD IS BIGGER THAN ANYTHING THAT THIS LIFE BRINGS.
GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU!!!!
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Lord, I know you have not given me the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I know that you are not the author of confusion. So, in my confused state, I come to you. Lord, open my eyes as I look to your word (the Bible) for guidance through these dark days. I feel a heavy spirit of depression blanketing every place that I try to relax in.
In the name of Jesus, I bind the demonic spirit of depression, confusion, spiritual apathy, shame, hiding, justification of sin, suicide, death, romanticism of death and hopelessness to the spirit of balak.
Lord, help me to see what you want me to see. Give me a supernatural revelation of your love for me. I know your Son died for me to have a great life, but that idea feels so distant and foreign to me.
I know this is the deception of the enemy. Satan wants me to feel like you don’t care about me or my issues and life. He has been speaking lies of worthlessness to my self-esteem and for so long I have believed him. I have actually thought these wicked lies came from my own mind. Lord, help me to hear your voice. How do you feel about me? Show me, Lord. Help me, Lord.
In the name of Jesus, please cloak me with the protection of your Son Jesus’ blood. Cover me with the very blood that died to give me a life that is glorious. Lord, open my ears and eyes to see what I need to see from you to get through this.
I am waiting for you, Lord. I will trust that you will deliver me. I know that there is a reason for this struggle, and I trust that I will come out better at the end of this temporary sadness.
I give you my sorrow, my shame, my sadness and broken heart to you. I know that you will use me in a mighty way if satan is struggling this hard to get me back into his grips. I will never go back, Lord. I need you to carry me through this. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen