melancholy
Humble Prayer Partner
This year have started off horribly for me, I just lost my job a month ago and my mom is getting more problematic because of her desperation of moving out which I understand since this neighborhood is very problematic too but it's getting too much with her talking about it all the time and small things can get her to go against you. I'm getting tired of everything, I feel alone in this in the fact I just lost my job and feel like a failure. I just want to be happy, it's come to the point I don't want to do anything all day besides playing video games, eating or listening to music to get everything out of my mind at the moment but it comes back in my mind.
I always do my best to pray and read the bible or complete forget if my brain is so tiredly and numb. There's night where I can't find myself to sleep, I might have to get on bed early than usual to try to fix that but yeah. 2025 is horrible so far and I don't know where my life is heading without my job, I was planning to go to Disney Land and other stuff if I get vacation from work but can't even have that for me. I'm so sick and tired of everything, I still believe in God despite everything that's happening but it's so hard to try to get rid of my depression. There's day when I workout and some not because my body don't want to give in. I don't know what to do anymore, everything just makes me upset that I can't have the life that I want while everybody elses can have theirs just as fine but I have to go through something. I don't understand why.
I just feel like a failure in general. I'm scared to even learn how to drive even though I'm trying to get myself into this driving school. It's upsetting in general. It's so hard to love myself after everything that has happened.
I always do my best to pray and read the bible or complete forget if my brain is so tiredly and numb. There's night where I can't find myself to sleep, I might have to get on bed early than usual to try to fix that but yeah. 2025 is horrible so far and I don't know where my life is heading without my job, I was planning to go to Disney Land and other stuff if I get vacation from work but can't even have that for me. I'm so sick and tired of everything, I still believe in God despite everything that's happening but it's so hard to try to get rid of my depression. There's day when I workout and some not because my body don't want to give in. I don't know what to do anymore, everything just makes me upset that I can't have the life that I want while everybody elses can have theirs just as fine but I have to go through something. I don't understand why.
I just feel like a failure in general. I'm scared to even learn how to drive even though I'm trying to get myself into this driving school. It's upsetting in general. It's so hard to love myself after everything that has happened.