Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
i feel like the only thing that matters to the Lord is a clean house and caring for family. I have been depressed my whole life. I feel no connection with anyone and I don't understand why just because someone is messy they cannot be blessed. I wish God cared about depressed lonely people like me. The only thing he cares about is a clean house. Don't want to disrespect Him but I'd rather die than be locked in a home my whole life cleaning. Lord forgive my sins please take me away from here. This is the only thing I get to do clean and clean more and then get yelled at. I haven't left the house for a year so have dirt, germs phobia, corn phobia, my jaw isn't aligned, my teeth are messed up. I have no friends and I care for my grandma and help my aunt's mom. My mom only cares about the house being clean. Every day all day. I don't want this life Lord, sorry. I'm a sinner and I don't even care anymore. I have never had a friend at least in a long time. My dad is homeless and needs help. I don't believe the Lord loves me and I tire of performance. If you love me then make a way for me to be happy today or something that doesn't require 24/7 work. I am a horrible servant my heart isn't in it anymore. I have had joy in many many many years. Everything is fake everything is pressured. No one even looks at me. I don't want to be on this planet but I can't kill myself because that's sin. So gotta go back to work. How long do I have to fake this. There is no sunshine. Nobody ever cares. Why try? Lord why try? I don't really understand. What's the point? Everything revolves around keeping the house nice and clean and if not the devil comes.. so I have no hope. I've been given a job that never ends and there is no joy in it. No joy in my life and I ask God for joy but it never comes. I don't know what to do.. I feel
				
			 
	
 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.  
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		