Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
i feel liekt he onyl thing that matters to the Lord is a clean ouse and carign for fmaily. i hav ebeen depressed my whole life. i feel no conenciton with anyone and i dotn understand why jsut becue someon is meessy they cannot be blessed. i wish God cared baout depresse lonel ypeopel liek me. the onyl thign he cares baout is clena house. dotn want to disrespect Him but id ratther die than be locke din a hoem my whoel like clenaign. Lor dforgvie my sins pleae take me away form here. this is hte onyl thing i get to do clean and clena mreo and than get yelled at. i havent lef thehous eofr year si have dirt germs phobia coorna phobia my jaw isnt aignemn my teeth are messe dup. i ave nof riends and i car eof rmy grandma nd help my uaitsc mom. my mom nóonyl care sbaotu the hosu ebeign clena. every day all day. i dotn wan thi this life Lor dim sorry. im a sinner an di dont even care anymore. ihave never had friend at least in a logn tiem . my dad s homless and nee dhert valve helaign. I odtn belvie the Lor dlove sme an dim tire dof performance. if yhe loves me thn make away lo dfor me to be happy today osmethign that dornst require 24/7 work. im a horrible servant my hear tistn in it anymore. i have had hjoy in many many many years. eevryhtign is fake everyhtign is pressurd. no on even looks at me. I odnt want to be onthis planet but i can tkill myself caus ethats sin. so gotta go bakc ot work. how long do i hav to fake this. ther i no sunshine . nobody ever cares. Why try? Lor dwhy try? i odnt reall udnerstand. whats the pint? everyhtign rvolves aorudn keepign the hous enice and clena an dif not the deivl comes.. so i have n hope ive been givne aj oyb that never ends and their is no joy in it. no joy in my lfie and i ask God for joy but it neevr comes. i dotn know what to do.. ifeel