Diaboleoreo
Disciple of Prayer
I need a lot of prayer help. It is similar to my previous post. ###'s Bleach is sucking the life and joy out of me and spiralling me into a deep depression! I thought his masked idol looked tough, lizard-like, and like it enjoyed scare attempting. They want almost tissue paper wimpy, bear-like, and he gets scared instead of tried to scare!!!!!! Huge, huge numbers of people want this ugly version!!!! The difference is like taking an icicle so cold it can freeze in the summer and dunking it in the center of a volcano. The pain is indescribable!!! I cannot type how much it hurts.
It gets worse. Much much worse! I was on Bleach forums for a long time. I openly liked this masked idol and discussed it a lot. Always the scare-attempter version. I never knew the other existed and it seems like madness to support it. I drew it a lot too. The spinosaurus drawing I liked the best at the time. However, there was another evil group attacking me. The problem is complicated but I appreciate your attention.
I used to think I loved dobermans. A lot. A major major passion. I drew the idol as this animal a lot. Liked that both looked so spiky and tough. And I wanted to do more. This combination looked amazing to me. On the forums I was asking for merchandise fitting this theme (not anymore) and even had bigger plans for more animation, and possibly theme park rides. I am not rich but I was looking for serious work. I thought this was my dream opportunity to grow this idea because no one else at the time spoke up for this idol or wanted to see it grow (out in public. I know in private they destroyed every idea I had). The other thing is I had been badly scarred and abused in the past by cruel people owning poofy or too friendly dogs. I cannot stand these breeds!!! I wanted something like a tough friend to get away from this madness. The abuse was scarring, almost like being hit by family members! It was not small.
It turns out I am allergic to dogs, big time!!! It should be obvious I cannot interact with them right from my post. What I wanted was actually a salamander, a big one in the wild. He just sits and looks tough. He does not need spikes. Dobermans apparently fail at this hard, but I never knew this. Regardless at the time it was well known this association was extremely important to me, like a dream.
I think the secret, demonic Bleach idol pushers crushed my old desires almost to where there is nothing left!!! They make ugly costumes of this idol for poofy dogs I cannot stand!!!! The absolute worst kind of betrayal!!!! I think they also want it associated with bear-like breeds such as pit bulls, not dobermans, which again feels like a knife in the back betrayal!!!!! Or worse because I am allergic to dogs for good reason, all breeds, including the scarring ones!!!!!!! What looked like a deep pop culture friend turned into a fierce enemy!!!!
Dogs to me are just nasty, plain and simple! There is too much idolizing dogs and too much pushing them on wrong people. I do not even get the right use of dogs, but dobermans are strange, so strange and unknown their guarding attempts seem almost like pretend play but I know this is wrong. Like they have to look theatrical rather than just go. Don't try to push these animals on me because I have never had real sympathy from others for this!!!! The animals would sadly listen to the demonic Bleach pushers over me. Salamanders are a blessing to me.
I would prefer silent prayers rather than anything written out. However, you can use this thread to discuss the dangers of Bleach and the over pushing of dogs on people.
It gets worse. Much much worse! I was on Bleach forums for a long time. I openly liked this masked idol and discussed it a lot. Always the scare-attempter version. I never knew the other existed and it seems like madness to support it. I drew it a lot too. The spinosaurus drawing I liked the best at the time. However, there was another evil group attacking me. The problem is complicated but I appreciate your attention.
I used to think I loved dobermans. A lot. A major major passion. I drew the idol as this animal a lot. Liked that both looked so spiky and tough. And I wanted to do more. This combination looked amazing to me. On the forums I was asking for merchandise fitting this theme (not anymore) and even had bigger plans for more animation, and possibly theme park rides. I am not rich but I was looking for serious work. I thought this was my dream opportunity to grow this idea because no one else at the time spoke up for this idol or wanted to see it grow (out in public. I know in private they destroyed every idea I had). The other thing is I had been badly scarred and abused in the past by cruel people owning poofy or too friendly dogs. I cannot stand these breeds!!! I wanted something like a tough friend to get away from this madness. The abuse was scarring, almost like being hit by family members! It was not small.
It turns out I am allergic to dogs, big time!!! It should be obvious I cannot interact with them right from my post. What I wanted was actually a salamander, a big one in the wild. He just sits and looks tough. He does not need spikes. Dobermans apparently fail at this hard, but I never knew this. Regardless at the time it was well known this association was extremely important to me, like a dream.
I think the secret, demonic Bleach idol pushers crushed my old desires almost to where there is nothing left!!! They make ugly costumes of this idol for poofy dogs I cannot stand!!!! The absolute worst kind of betrayal!!!! I think they also want it associated with bear-like breeds such as pit bulls, not dobermans, which again feels like a knife in the back betrayal!!!!! Or worse because I am allergic to dogs for good reason, all breeds, including the scarring ones!!!!!!! What looked like a deep pop culture friend turned into a fierce enemy!!!!
Dogs to me are just nasty, plain and simple! There is too much idolizing dogs and too much pushing them on wrong people. I do not even get the right use of dogs, but dobermans are strange, so strange and unknown their guarding attempts seem almost like pretend play but I know this is wrong. Like they have to look theatrical rather than just go. Don't try to push these animals on me because I have never had real sympathy from others for this!!!! The animals would sadly listen to the demonic Bleach pushers over me. Salamanders are a blessing to me.
I would prefer silent prayers rather than anything written out. However, you can use this thread to discuss the dangers of Bleach and the over pushing of dogs on people.
