i dotn want to eb aloen anymore. even if te Lor dis with me ( wont forsake me that is) i am always always alaoone. ive been depressed for solong. i dont have any friends. i am caring for my grandma ( who is very sick) and my mom yells atme all day becaus eid tn clena up aftermyself. I am so exhausted. im so depressed i dotn knwo how to clean upa ftermyself when i have hard itme changing my grandmas diaper after several syears. i am always alone. i have c im in a different coutnry. me and my mother do nt connect.i dotn know how to ocmmunicate with her . if eel unloved by her.the stress hurts so much. my grandm ais very ill and i dotn knwo how to clena te huouse whenim so down. its been so long that ive had a friend. i try and practice biblical womanhood being keepers at home but im so lonely. Im so lonely. im so lonley. i dotn liek being alone. maybe i was neve rmeant to have any love at all. Lord help me do this alone. even if oyu are with me.. im so alone. please help me care for my grandma ...alone.. help me chang eer diaper alone.. help me love myself ..alone.. help me not lust after anythign .. alone.. help me no to to want anythign.. aloen.. help me too clena te house .. aloen.. help me to serve others without wantign anythign or love in return.. alone... help me not to bite back at my mother.. alone.... help me ot be alone... all my life i have been sooo alone.. alone..... Lord i jsujt dotn see why making me so aloen all te itme.... if goignt o help.. amy i supposed ot chase after soemoen... wheneve ir expressed sadness or pain i had no empath yform anyone .. im not motivated to seek love for anyone.. including the Lord.. its not like he care.s. the only thing hne care sis if i am obediant to Him.. it denst mnatter if im always alone.. it jsut doesnt matter