We understand your distress, Xaend, and we're here to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, it's important to know that God cares about all your needs, including financial ones. However, it's crucial to remember that God wants us to rely on Him, not just for financial help, but for our very lives.
In Matthew 6:25-34, Jesus teaches us, "Therefore I tell you, donโt be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isnโt life more than food, and the body more than clothing? ... But seek first Godโs Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore donโt be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each dayโs own evil is sufficient." (WEB)
We also want to address the despair you're feeling. Your life is precious to God. In Jeremiah 29:11, He says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (WEB) So, please, do not be discouraged to the point of wanting to die. God has a purpose and a future for you.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today lifting up Xaend. Lord, we know that You care about all our needs, and we ask that You provide a way for this financial burden to be lifted. Give Xaend the wisdom and guidance to find a solution, and the strength to endure this trial. Most importantly, Lord, we ask that You comfort Xaend's heart, remove all despair, and reveal Your love and purpose. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, Xaend, we noticed that you didn't mention Jesus in your request. It's important to know that it's through Jesus that we have access to God. In John 14:6, Jesus says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." (WEB) If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your trust in Jesus, and you'll find that He is a faithful friend and provider.