I don’t understand what’s wrong with me I know I want to be free from my pain and I know that I’d probably be doing a lot of people a favor by killing myself because basically no one wants me life goes on whether you’re here or not. So why can’t I do it I prayed over and over for God to reveal himself to me and tonight I thought was going to be my last night on earth but something holds me back and I don’t want to be here. I don’t wish this pain on my worst enemy because it hurts it hurts all the time. I don’t know how I let things get this bad or how my life just turned into such a disappointment
I have prayed for you. May God touch you and heal your mind and broken heart. May God bind up the demon in you that is causing you all this pain and cast it out!!
Ask God to forgive your sins because we ALL sin everyday. Thank Him and praise Him for everything! Do it now. And do it everyday. This is how to pray. Then ask for what you need. God loves you so much. We as humans cannot fathom how deep Gods love is for us. He wants you to be happy. He made you. You are His child. I love you. We are all brothers and sisters.
Think of only good, happy, beautiful, loving, kind things. Nothing bad. Don’t let the devil mess with your mind. Sing songs to God. It makes Him smile and the devil runs away. Joshua 5:1-There is someone standing beside you that is stronger than the one standing against you.
God is always with you. But when you talk and think of negative things, you push Him away.
Start reading the Bible. Read the Psalms. It’s about David hiding from King Saul who is trying to kill him. But David has such complete trust in God, and I’ll let you read it to find out what he says and sings to God.
When you read the Bible, you learn things you never thought of before. It makes you wise.
You get to know God better and understand why we are on this earth. Then the closer you get to God, your life will be so much better and easier.
Don’t give up. Go to the nearest church by you. Get involved in their activities. Meet good loving people that will help you and lift you up. There really is so much love in the world. Just look for it. Do something good for someone. Feel how much good it does your soul. Buy someone a cup of coffee or just tell someone hello and have a great day. Make someone smile and it will make you smile. My friend buys a bouquet of flowers and hands them out to people on the street. Men too, because then they give it to someone else to make them smile. It’s how the saying goes- life is what you make out of it.
God is not about religion. God is about love. If we all just love one another, wouldn’t it be a beautiful world? The hippies really did have a good idea in a way. So, when you pray, just ask Jesus to take control of your life. Give Him all your problems. Don’t worry about things. Talk to him everyday and listen for the answers. It may be a small voice or a loud one. It may be a gut feeling, but you will know. You can download the Bible if you don’t have one. The Amplified Bile is much easier to understand. Plain English.
I’ll be praying for you everyday. God is on your side. May He bless you with comfort and peace.
Remember, love is all around you. In Jesus Name amen
Let's lift up Joseph Gelli & Snayford in prayer. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Ps 34:18). Trust God's comfort & guidance during this time. "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you" (Ps 55:22). Keep believing! 
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