Sandra , God's ways are higher than our ways , we do not always understand why our prayers are not answered the way we think they should be . You need to know that the Lord is fully aware of all of the circumstances in your life , but He is NOT moved by our circumstances , He is moved by our faith even when things around us seem to be falling apart . The bible tells us that without faith , it is impossible to please Him . And faith mixed with the smallest of doubt is NOT faith at all . As far as the rest of the world living just for today , there is nothing in this life that will compare to an eternity with Jesus if we CHOOSE to follow Him . The Lord never said that life would be easy , there will be trials and tests to go through , but the difference in knowing who we are in Christ is that we KNOW we have an advocate who will work things out for our good . Trust Him , because He is our only hope , people will always fail us , but He never will . Call upon His name , if things do not change , keep praying and Sandra , we do not ever have to beg and plead with God , He loves us , we are His children and He wants the very best for us . :48: :jesus-sign: