Chaynee
Disciple of Prayer
I don't know what to do. This is my 2nd year at my new high school. I'm 16. Within the last year I have been bullied so much. People tell me to kill myself. I've had this one guy body shame me so much and tell me he wanted to " crush my skull" and " hate crime" me every time he looked at my face. The school only barely punished him. It stopped for a brief time but now the new school year started and he is back at it again. I feel so lost and down and I feel like he's ruining my life. To make matters worse, I started wearing a head covering. It's a traditional thing and many Christians don't wear one anymore but I found out about it and researched and looked into the bible and I just felt like God was calling me to it. It's called christian veiling. I have been so so so bullied recently because of it. I get constantly laughed at for my faith on top of the previous bullying. I have people making snide comments and I feel like I can't even be Christian in peace. It's at the point where I feel like he's gonna yank it off my head and if he, or anyone else for that matter, does I'll break down. This situation is already bad enough. But I've been struggling with severe mental illness for years now. I am diagnosed with anxiety, ocd, and depression and I feel like I'm slipping. I feel like I need help and I don't know what to do. I wish i could just be happy but unfortunately it's not that easy. I pray everyday to be happy and have yet to do so. I know it's not anyone's fault except the bullies but it's just making me get sick everytime i think about school. I don't know what to do. Please pray for me.