Laworellen
Disciple of Prayer
I had 100 lbs fall on my head it has made me unable to express myself that was when I was 18 I am now 50. I had had 3 car accidents all not my fault They left my body unable to work that was when I was in my late 20s. I have been healed before from second car accident when i was unable to work again i ended up being a professional mover for Global Van Lines. the third accident is what left me in my current struggle. I have been waiting for over 20 years to be healed again to be able to work again. But my mother has been making my life hell that i even pray to god just to end my life
I can't take it anymore. My stepdad passed away 3 years ago and my mom has been through so many romance scammers and lost money and I can't say anything if I do I'm an evil person. we moved from Florida to Honduras. I'm allergic to many food and i thought i was going to starve to death my first week in Honduras everything I got to eat I couldn't even smell would trigger my allergy. I went a whole week just eating Doriotos until I found Pizza Hut and we got our place everything was fine when my mom hired a nurse who worked at the hotel we were staying to help show us around and help with my Down syndrome brother. Then my mom changed again and married the guy. But that guy lives with the woman of his kids my mom ends up supporting his kids while me and my brother suffer. I have allways helped take care of my brother and I hardly ever ask for anything. but to get denied to go see a doctor while she always gives that guy money hurt me. she asked me for help as to why the fridge door wouldn't close so I figured it out I only tried to explain to her why it happened so if it happened again she would know what to do. She told me she is sick and tired of me. and we moved 2 times in two months because that guy mentioned it to my mother. that place we moved to is very hard for me to eat i even sometimes cry just trying to eat my stomach doesn't want it. She keeps on telling me that god is telling her to wait that the guy will come around. but that guy woman has a problem with me and even lied saying i proposed marriage to her. and that guy told my mother that i am a leech and my mother makes me feel that im a disturbance. my mother and i use to take care of my brother 50 50 but now i do 95% of the work. and one day my mom got sick and she ask that guy for help and he refused and told my mother she was faking it, so i told him if you come to help then help but if you come to insult my mother then you are not welcome here. then my mother came back from the dr and she said she see now that im the problem and not that guy and that i will end up killing her since i made her sick since she always argues with me i cant talk if i talk its the same im possed by satan in her mind. she even told me today if i dont like it i can leave. I am unable to work i looked up what i felt with my knees and this is what i found Patellar Dislocations hard for me to stand still very painful i have 5 herniated disk from neck to lower back pinch nerves, nerve damage in my hands i get relapse of my whiplash hard for me to learn new stuff from my head injury. All i wanted in life was to live a normal life work have a family, but i ended up unable to work and have to depend on my mother and get insulted by my family that i am a good-for-nothing lazy person. I have endured all this since i was 18 years old and i never once felt tired with life until my mother started treating me this way. i have no where to go unable to get medical help and if i live in the street i would starve to death since i have food allergy. I have prayed to get healed or to get away from my mother or whatever god wants me to do Maybe he is telling me and I can't see it. My neck got swollen after we got done moving and my mom hit me in the shoulder and also injured my neck more than it is. I have a huge lump in my neck it can be cancer or something else I'm not sure. after I kicked that guy out of the house my mom tried to smooth it out by having him take me to the doctor but i haven't been able to get the test done since our house got flooded from the storm. all I ask is for the person my mom chooses to be with to be faithful and treat her right. but I don't see that from that guy. and it pains me to start feeling hatred for my mom whom I always loved. I feel all alone and lost
I can't take it anymore. My stepdad passed away 3 years ago and my mom has been through so many romance scammers and lost money and I can't say anything if I do I'm an evil person. we moved from Florida to Honduras. I'm allergic to many food and i thought i was going to starve to death my first week in Honduras everything I got to eat I couldn't even smell would trigger my allergy. I went a whole week just eating Doriotos until I found Pizza Hut and we got our place everything was fine when my mom hired a nurse who worked at the hotel we were staying to help show us around and help with my Down syndrome brother. Then my mom changed again and married the guy. But that guy lives with the woman of his kids my mom ends up supporting his kids while me and my brother suffer. I have allways helped take care of my brother and I hardly ever ask for anything. but to get denied to go see a doctor while she always gives that guy money hurt me. she asked me for help as to why the fridge door wouldn't close so I figured it out I only tried to explain to her why it happened so if it happened again she would know what to do. She told me she is sick and tired of me. and we moved 2 times in two months because that guy mentioned it to my mother. that place we moved to is very hard for me to eat i even sometimes cry just trying to eat my stomach doesn't want it. She keeps on telling me that god is telling her to wait that the guy will come around. but that guy woman has a problem with me and even lied saying i proposed marriage to her. and that guy told my mother that i am a leech and my mother makes me feel that im a disturbance. my mother and i use to take care of my brother 50 50 but now i do 95% of the work. and one day my mom got sick and she ask that guy for help and he refused and told my mother she was faking it, so i told him if you come to help then help but if you come to insult my mother then you are not welcome here. then my mother came back from the dr and she said she see now that im the problem and not that guy and that i will end up killing her since i made her sick since she always argues with me i cant talk if i talk its the same im possed by satan in her mind. she even told me today if i dont like it i can leave. I am unable to work i looked up what i felt with my knees and this is what i found Patellar Dislocations hard for me to stand still very painful i have 5 herniated disk from neck to lower back pinch nerves, nerve damage in my hands i get relapse of my whiplash hard for me to learn new stuff from my head injury. All i wanted in life was to live a normal life work have a family, but i ended up unable to work and have to depend on my mother and get insulted by my family that i am a good-for-nothing lazy person. I have endured all this since i was 18 years old and i never once felt tired with life until my mother started treating me this way. i have no where to go unable to get medical help and if i live in the street i would starve to death since i have food allergy. I have prayed to get healed or to get away from my mother or whatever god wants me to do Maybe he is telling me and I can't see it. My neck got swollen after we got done moving and my mom hit me in the shoulder and also injured my neck more than it is. I have a huge lump in my neck it can be cancer or something else I'm not sure. after I kicked that guy out of the house my mom tried to smooth it out by having him take me to the doctor but i haven't been able to get the test done since our house got flooded from the storm. all I ask is for the person my mom chooses to be with to be faithful and treat her right. but I don't see that from that guy. and it pains me to start feeling hatred for my mom whom I always loved. I feel all alone and lost