Achael
Disciple of Prayer
I dont feel well nobody likes me because I s**t I have nothing I am always living uncomfortable and with fear with god I feel okay but when I’m around anybody I feel not okay at all anyways I also wish I live by myself and I hate birthdays and lies I am still damage as always and I always hate myself a lot my heart is weak and rotten as always I am turning 19 next week saturday and I hate worrying about it and I want my greed to continue to be disapear I am living a unfair life where my mom never leaves me alone and let me get away from anybody and but have nerves to tell me these nonsense positive words I am mentally bad sick and I hate my life a lot and I just want friends now and I want to fit in for f**k sakes I really hate people for being weird and annyoing and a show off I hate having sexual minds a lot I have everything I wish I never exist out the womb i wish I can be in heaven but all I know is that I am definitely going to h**l anyways I hope I die and I guess I need prayers and satan are trying to seperate me from god and he’s weird like people anyways I’m gonna admit my sins again I lied I cheat I steal I am jealous I am ungratefeful I want to look like every girl I wish I had someone’s life I always look at my past and want people’s attention and to like me I wish I was dead again and I wish I can escape and build my own home and deal with misery alone family stinks, friendships dont exists, relationships os the worst part in life anyways I have social anxieties, unstable, always low confidence, and insecure I also curse say his name in vain when im mad curious about drugs my heart aches everyday and I am sick and tired of living. im just a childish loner loser i will never get a job i will never be perfect in life for anyone i will never have any meaning of living i cant take any sh*t anymore I want to cry and die