I Don't Even Know How I'm Still Going, Please Help

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EAndersen

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I don't even know how I'm still going. Someone my age shouldn't have to see what I've seen. But what's really put me over the edge is that in the past six months I've lost my fiance, lost my house, lost all the money I had, both of my childhood pets died, my best friends all got shipped off to afghanistan, I've been emotionally tortured by the girl who was once an angel to me (my fiance) and she'd laugh when I cried, she turned my roommate against me, and now I found out... I feel like I should be ashamed but really there's no point in letting guilt and regret eat away at me... she called last night to tell me that she had lied about being on birth control, had gotten pregnant and had an abortion without telling me, and now she's pregnant with someone elses child and is going through with it. I'm so tired of being tired that I just smiled, and I'm icy cold, shaking, feel sick, but I'm friendlier than ever and just keeping a smile on my face cause I'm tired of being dragged down. And now I found out my grandmother died this morning. I don't know what else I can do... if you knew me you'd know that I go out of my way to help others, I've put in over 500 hours of community service, all my best friends say I saved their lives because they used to be bullies and drug-addicts who I reformed, when something bad happens I always, ALWAYS try to make the best of it. My little brother who died, I think I have to be the BEST person I can be to make him proud that I'm his big brother. I've prayed and prayed and prayed for guidance, I've prayed for a break, for hope, for strength, for anything, and anytime I do things just get worse. What makes my life better is to just stand up on my own, and deal with it, but every time I go back to prayer things fall apart again. I tried to explain this to someone who was throwing bible quotes at me. I understand the concept of being a good person, I KNOW what I need to do most of the time, I feel like God is on my shoulder, I'm always coming through things somehow and I'm thankful for that but I'm starting to talk with 40 year olds who treat me like I'm their age, they look at me and see someone who's experienced as much as them and it scares me. I am blessed to make it through everything, I'm blessed to have NEVER had a role model in my life, to be surrounded by drug-addicts and alcoholics but I still became a good man and it was before I found Christianity. Like I said I think there's an angel on my shoulder... what I pray for is that this finally leads up to something good. I pray that I find a career path to support my family, that I can travel the world like I've always wanted, that I find a woman who can be everything I've ever dreamed to be with who I can share my love with, I pray for anything, just something to pull me up from this FINALLY. I want this to be over. It makes me a better person, it made me into a soldier, but enough... I am weary, I can hardly stand at times. Just let things get better. There has to be some kind of light at the end of the tunnel and I'm praying for that, even if only a glimmer of hope. Amen. Thank you for reading this.
 
When pressures overwhelming,

I am dealing with hard stuff

I will remember Jesus...

I want to live and love

And when I am feeling crushed,

abandoned, all alone

I will commit my way to Jesus...

And fears feel be gone



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I am sorry about your sorrows. I have been through tragedies of losing both my parents to cancer before I was thirty, I have a brother who is homeless and hooked on drugs right now, and I have a sister who is bi-polar. I have also lost my apartment, car, and struggle with my health from the stress and worrying for so many years which resulted in me getting nine tumors removed from my body, but I am still here standing. My only advice I can give you is to ask God to reveal to you what your next move should be, what his calling for you is, and with time and patience he will reveal to you what you should do. I will keep you in prayer and God Bless. This is a verse my mom gave to me when I was a child I hope this helps. Proverbs 3:5-6. Take Care.
 
Father God I ask that You would turn this persons life around and bring him happiness and help him in everyway he is in need of help. I ask that You would bless him, and draw him close to You in every way spiritually. These things I ask in the most Holy name of our precious Lod and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.

Philippians 4:7,8.
 
Let’s Pray…Father God, in the name of Jesus, I ask that You will bless Me with the desires of my heart that is the will of God for my life! I plead the blood of Jesus over my life, my mind, body, soul, and spirit. God I am your child. Deliver, sanctify, set free and set me apart for the glory of God.

God lead, guide, and direct my footsteps. Let Peace, Love, Joy, Hope, Faith, Excellent Health, Holiness, Wisdom, Knowledge, Understanding, Protection and Prosperity rest in my home, heart, and life. Make me whole in You Lord Jesus. May I come to know You, Love You, and Obey You. Let my life be shaped by the Word of God. Be Lord Of All in All My Life. And all that I have asked of You God in this prayer please do the same for the writer of this prayer, my family, and friends. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen, So Be It !!!

Encourager Linda Flagg, LM, CS

Christian Life Coach & Youth Minister
 
Just throw yourself on the Lord, He is able to sustain you!

When you are down to nothing, the Lord is up to something

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