Aliren
Disciple of Prayer
I disobeyed God purposefully. I didn't want to do that, but I can't stop committing sin when I lose and get teased in a group. I don't have a strong mind; I am filled with fear and get sad over very small things. To get relaxed, I watch explicit content to get pleasure from sin and forget all the bad things that happen to me. I didn't feel like talking to God, and my mind is full of blasphemous thoughts because of OCD mental disorder. I can't pray to God; I read the Bible to hear God, but I don't hear His voice or understand His plan about my life and what He wants me to do. I am tired of my cycle of sin and feel trapped in it.