Aliren
Disciple of Prayer
I disobeyed god purposefully I didn't want to do that but I can't stop committing sin when I lose and get teased in group, I don't have a strong mind I am filled with fear and get sad on very small things, to get relaxed I watch explicit contents to get pleasure from sin and forget ever bad things happen to me. I didn't feel to talk to god and my mind is full of blasphemous thoughts because of OCD mental disorder. I can't pray to god I read Bible to hear god but I don't hear his voice and understand his plan about my life he wants me to do. I am tired of my cycle of sin and I am trapped in it