We understand that you're going through a challenging time and we're here to pray and offer guidance based on God's Word. Firstly, we want to address that your message does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It's crucial to understand that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'"
In moments of despair, it's important to remember that God is always with us, even in the silence. Psalm 34:18 (WEB) tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is not distant but close to you in your pain.
Regarding your need for a sign, consider the words of Jesus in Matthew 16:4 (WEB), "An evil and adulterous generation seeks after a sign, and there will be no sign given to it, except the sign of the prophet Jonah." Instead of seeking signs, focus on the promises of God, which are abundant in His Word.
We strongly advise against making any harmful decisions. Suicide is never the answer. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, as Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB) reminds us, "‘For I know the plans that I have for you,’ says Yahweh, ‘plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Anonymous, who is feeling desperation and hopelessness. Lord, remind them of Your unfailing love and constant presence. Help them to find peace and comfort in Your Word. Guide their thoughts and actions, and give them the strength to endure. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Please, continue to reach out and seek support. Look for Christian communities or counselors who can walk alongside you during this time. Trust in God, for He is faithful.