Anonymous
Beloved of All
My mind is racing. I am struggling with sexual desires. This is so messed up. I'm not supposed to have sex until marriage, right? You would thick by now since I waited to have sex until marriage, that God would bless me with a spouse, right? Not yet. How is that fair when I have a strong sex drive? Is this some kind of joke? Why is God trying me like this? How much longer do I have to wait? It's like he's just waiting for me to slip up and go have sex with someone I'm not married too. Just so the very next day he can throw her at me, and say "Here she is. If you had just waited one more day, you would have made it." Why is this so hard? Isnt 10 years long enough? I don't understand God, what are you doing? Did my wife not wait for me? Is she not a virgin anymore, and your waiting for me to give up my virginity so I won't make her feel guilty? I don't get it. How much longer? I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to wait anymore. I can't do it. It's indescribable what I'm feeling right now. I don't know what to say. Please stop. I can't do it anymore. I just want to sit down and cry.