OneOfAKiNd
Disciple of Prayer
Jesus Christ, I've been praying and praying and praying with all my might for the father of my child to change and open his heart, open his eyes to what he does and says to me. Despite all that I've been through with him, I've never stopped loving him...... why can't he love me the same way Jesus Christ??????????? Nothing I say or do has ever been enough for him, causing unnecessary arguments. And now I realize it's because he's always had someone in the side. He's created arguments with me just to push me away and make himself justify what he's been doing behind my back. He doesn't own a car, he doesn't want to work, doesn't have a bed to sleep on. He sleeps on the floor of his sister's apartment....I've never judged him or looked down in him God. He first have anything to offer me or anyone else for that matter but yet hes still out there looking for other women, when the only woman who truly cares about him and has loved him unconditionally is me, for about 8 years. I am heart broken if his actions towards me Jesus Christ and I've been having a hard time accepting having to move on. It's 3am and I'm just awake thinking about him and his whereabouts and what he is doing. I pray Jesus christ for your strength to be strong and let him go. Please God I want to forget about him please God please. It hurts too much. I feel everything and I'm losing my mind. Help me relax and sleep God. please I'm begging you. I don't want to feel this unbearable pain anymore. In Jesus Name we pray AMEN