Nurgali
Disciple of Prayer
I can't forgive myself I'm 15 and I live in a Christian family. Back when I was 7 I used to steal, lie, curse, and do things to a boy like me... When I was 13, I was so horny and I ended up letting my dog lick me... It gave me so much pleasure, but all of the other time I've been feeling so wretched and like a total monster... It's our family dog and I still love her, we play out side a lot and she loves me too, but... Whenever I see her, I'm reminded of how wicked I was at that time... Now I'm completely different and I believe in Jesus more than ever. I've been struggling with masturbation too, for 3 years... But now I'm finally free from it... I still can't forgive myself for the things I did to my dog... I can't live with it... It haunts me... I now have a girlfriend and I told her about everything, except for my past bestiality. I feel like I don't deserve her... Please, I need your help. I know God has forgiven me, but it just doesn't sit right with me. Please, pray. I can't ask for more. I love you all, brothers. Thank you.