Rortanior
Disciple of Prayer
I can’t even begin to list all of the pain and/or injustices and I’ve been suffering over the past couple of years… From losing my job of 23 years (because they refused to accept religious and/or medical exemptions), losing the ability to retire at any ‘appropriate’ age, having to move from our dream home and city to one far less desirable, away from our ‘community’, to finding out that the reason my husband can’t be ‘intimate’ is because he’s addicted to porn, to having my husband refuse to look for a job for over a year (and now that he found part-time work, refusing find better or ‘more’ work), to finding out my mom sold her home to my sister and husband (no kids/no pets) for a reduced amount, then gave them $250,000 to make it the way they want, and another $150,000 to reduce the mortgage and finding out she’s paying them $1000/month rent for ‘a room’ in a 3-BR/1.5 bath home. (My sister’s husband is a professor at a major university, my sister’s profession is the same as mine, but she quit working 2-years ago for fear of getting COVID. She now travels around the world going on ‘rejuvenation retreats’. My husband was a teacher at a perochial school, never made much and his ADHD makes it hard to keep a job. (My mother could have lived with us for free, not sold her house etc., she was afraid to relocate). I have 4-children, several pets. Life feels so unfair to me and it’s hard to not be bitter, resentful and angry. I despise my new job, and I’m in the process of getting a 2nd job just to make ends meet. I’ve suffered depression and anxiety most of my life, and I rectify found out I may have an Autoimmune disease. (Sorry if I’m ranting and if things don’t make sense, I have to put on a happy face and act like ‘all’s great’ to my husbands family now). I’m begging for prayers to ask God to take away my resentment, bitterness and anger, and prayers for my health to be able to keep working. Thank you and God bless!