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Humble Prayer Partner
I cannot take this anymore..I want her out,I don't know why I get so angry at her , I wanted to throw something ,she doesn't listen she thinks she is helping but is not ........I hate my life..I hate my Physical pain my pain is turning me to me into the bitter person.....Please Lord I don't want her here, her anxiety propels my anxiety...she doesn't not understand my illness and think I am just being lazy and sleeps to much..she play mind games when I tell I am in pain and cannot do anything she throws it back in my face she plays as if she is sicker than me... she said don't compare myself to her ............. I yelled back in great anger don't u ever compare me to you...U will never understand my pain and fatigue.... and she doesn't.....I have given this woman great empathy and compassion but I feel she plays me to make me feel sorry for her she did all my life ........... we both suffer from panic attacks also.....................what kind of JOKE is this GOD!!! I can barely care for myself and now I have to deal with this!!!!!!!!!! I thought I was doing the right thing but I did not my health is worse and my spirit is low...... I don't want to heal her I don't want to care for her... you might as well consider me dead too cause that is how I feel inside right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate what I see in the mirror the image in my mothers eyes is my own!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot handle this Lord............ I surrender!!!! and I hate both of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!