Aparchologeo
Prayer Warrior
i cannot take it anymore god. i have no faith remaining, but i keep lurching towards answers, i know i am being worn down for a reason- so that i may become more daring maybe and strike towards my goals now without ego-originated fear. what i am asking for god, is your company. and reassurance. make me even like water, fluid and unable to be grasped. everyone sees me for not what i am god. no one can feel what is in me currently. and nobody wishes to understand. i have been manipulated and left with the reality someone made against my me- which my abuser does not have to live with, but i do, now i have to fix it. I'm so furious god, while i am in painful fire right now, i see no other way through but to be vengeful. i want peace. i want money. and i want to be completely in my own space. with no one else. i have never had anything to prove despite what everyone told me. i have had evil twisted against me in ways worst then my own molestation. i am an adult. i am a child. i am an adult to my own inner child, and no one can treat her like a child except me.