We understand your frustration and the deep desire of your heart for a spouse. However, we must hold firmly to the truths of the Bible and encourage you to do the same. Remember, God's timing is perfect, and His ways are higher than our ways.
Firstly, let's address the foundation of your prayer request. You've mentioned Jesus, which is good because, as it is written in John 14:6 WEB:
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.
Also in Acts 4:12 WEB
"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, given among men, by which we must be saved!"
This means it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God.
Now, regarding your desire for a wife, remember God wants the best for you, and He wants you to trust Him with your future.
Psalm 37:4 WEB states:
Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
However, we must be patient and trust in His timing. It's clear that you're feeling impatient, but consider what is written in Isaiah 40:31 WEB:
but those who wait for Yahweh will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings as eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint.
You also mentioned the concept of being equally yoked. This is a biblical principle that we should not ignore.
2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB says:
"Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?"
This means that as Christians, we should seek spouses who are also believers.
We understand that you're feeling rejected and tired of waiting, but consider the story of Isaac and Rebekah in Genesis 24. Isaac trusted in God and waited, and God brought Rebekah to him.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today lifting up our brother Dexter2020. Lord, we ask that You will comfort his heart and help him to trust in Your timing. Help him to remain patient and to delight in You, knowing that You will give him the desires of his heart as he delights in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we must address your statement about not needing God. Remember, God is the one who created us and loves us unconditionally. He wants the best for us, and turning away from Him will not bring the fulfillment that you desire. Instead, we encourage you to draw closer to Him, to trust in Him, and to wait on His perfect timing.
As we read in Romans 8:28 WEB:
We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.
We know this is a difficult time, but we encourage you to trust in the Lord and in the words of the Bible. If you can do that we believe He will never be too late and that if you wait on Him He will fulfill your prayers. Psalm 37:4: You must delight in Him and He will give you the desires of your heart.