I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of days ago.

[BeutifultoGod]

I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of days ago. I feel sad and heartbroken. I don't know what to do. I struggle with my mind (severe depression) and emotion. His mom friend called me not really to check on me but to be nosey it seems (asking about my job, do I have a car etc....). Maybe to tell his mom somethings. I miss him but at the same time it has been a lot I have done with this last year and I was tired. I was tired of the lying and tired of her always calling him when he was out with me. I just felt like she did not want us to get closer to each other and she was the one who put us together. I was really stressed and heartbroken because of it.

I have never dealt with some of the things I dealt with and with his family (called names too by his brother). Not only that I ended up compromising myself in the relationship and doing things that were not God like. I am tired of crying myself to sleep. I am not looking to be judged. I am a broken soul who needs help and healing with my mind, health, body, spirit and soul. I feel like everyone is making fun of me and judging me. I told something to my aunt yesterday and she was smirking ( she tells people's business a lot). I know she was judging me and I know she will tell everyone in the family my business. I don't tell my mom anything because she makes me feel stupid and worse. And my sister can be harsh and she has a baby on the way. This is why I hold stuff in and don't tell no one nothing. I don't trust anyone. I don't like my job and it stress me out. It's hard because I have no car and do not know how to drive. So I have to wake up really early before my time to work. My body is giving up on me. I got to the doctor they tell me everything is fine but I do not feel that way. I barely go to church anymore because my old one I did not belong and they said things too (called me slow) and I know I need to forgive them for it. I don't want to be a victim and I need the bad fruit off my tree also. It's hard for me to receive love and give it. I miss church but I don't feel at home at any. I feel rejected (maybe from the bastard curse). I need to live victorious but I don't know how to and how Jesus really loves me. I am insecure and shy. I want friends but people tell you you don't need them. 

Since I have depression I have not moved in life at all and I am scared it is going to happen again. I want to move on but my disability pulls me down. I have tried to get help everywhere and I cannot get any and my family is not supportive at all. I feel so alone. I feel lost and hurt. No one truly understands and I push people away because it is hard to deal with me or they talk about me behind my back. I would not wish this on anyone. I wish someone could just help me and hold me so I can cry in their arms. I am really struggling.

Please God heal all the brokenhearted people out  their who are like me who struggle with loneliness, depression, broken heart, insecurities. I also want to pray for MerciMe and I pray God you will send comforters to her during this time of lost. Send your Holy Spirit to her and to comfort her. Let her know how precious she is to you and how you feels what she feels and know what she is going through. In Jesus Name Amen

 

[aretha44]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[kanaka susheela]

Most relationships  fail because  we spend too much  time pointing  out each other's  mistakes and don't spend  enough time  in prayer. When we put God first all other  things fall into their proper places. God will fill you with holy spirit and remove all your depression and loneliness right now . and bless you with courage and strength to overcome your  temptations .praying in the  mighty name of Jesus ..amen.

 

[CJL80]

I prayed for you. May God bless you.

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

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