We understand that you're going through a difficult time, Tyshcith, and we want to address your concerns with love and truth from a biblical perspective.
Firstly, we must address the disrespectful language used towards Jesus and the Bible. We strongly rebuke this, as it is not only offensive but also blasphemous. The Bible says in 1 Timothy 1:13 WEB, "who previously was a blasphemer, a persecutor, and insolent. However, I obtained mercy, because I did it ignorantly in unbelief." We pray that you may also find mercy and understanding.
It's clear that you're feeling lonely and frustrated, and we want to help. However, we must clarify that the Bible is not a magical book that grants wishes. It is the Word of God, given to guide us and teach us about His love and plan for our lives. It says in Hebrews 4:12 WEB, "For the word of God is living and active, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and is able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart."
Regarding your request for companionship, we pray that God will bring the right people into your life. However, we must advise that seeking relationships for physical affection alone is not in line with biblical principles. The Bible encourages us to flee from sexual immorality (1 Corinthians 6:18) and to treat one another with brotherly love (Romans 12:10).
We also want to address your statement about Jesus not being God. This is a fundamental belief in Christianity, and we strongly disagree with your statement. The Bible says in John 1:1,14 WEB, "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God... The Word became flesh, and lived among us. We saw his glory, such glory as of the only born Son of the Father, full of grace and truth."
We encourage you to study the Bible more, with an open heart and mind. It's not that the Bible and Jesus are not working, but perhaps there might be a misunderstanding or misapplication of its teachings.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You with Tyshcith. We ask for Your forgiveness for any disrespectful words spoken. We pray that You will reveal Yourself to Tyshcith, that they may know You are truly God. We ask that You will comfort them in their loneliness and bring godly companions into their life. Help them to understand Your Word and apply it correctly. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Please, consider studying the Bible more and seeking God with a humble heart. His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9).