hector01
Humble Prayer Partner
I ask that you pray for me. I have had some tough times as of late. My mind is all over the place, and I seem like i am going to have an emotional break down. This all started after dealing with my oldest brother's alcohol problem. I am the middle child that never drank or smoked or did drugs. I did sports and was a mama''s boy always being there for my mother. I dealt with dad's alcoholism and it was tough. i kept it to myself and have had to deal with job losses due to bad decisions I made, I was to blame for my job losses. I have a family that is great, and I love them all. Recently, i was answering mom's every call about my brother's alcohol problem. Going there at all times of the night. Calling the police, spying on him etc. I was emotionally and physically spent, but I did it for mom because she was breaking down every day. Finally I was able to get my brother into Rehab at the Salvation Army, and he's been doing great for 3 months. Unfortunately for me, It had a tremendous emotional effect and scar on me. I have developed high blood pressure, depression and panic attacks. I went to the dr and my BP was so high. I left and never returned. I think i am losing it many times, but my friends and family don't really know. I have been reading the Bible and praying. I have bad dreams and nightmares, but every so often God gives me a good day and I see hope. Panic attacks for fear of nothing are so tough. I will get through this with God's help. I ask that you would be kind enough to pray for me. The mental and emotional stress is something i could have never imagined. I want to be happy again and smile. I'm doing my best to fight through this with God's help. Thank you for your prayers. I do wonder if others have dealt with something like this. Thank you and may God Bless you all.